NoClueKid90

LOL Gay person is gay!

...yes, and?

Seriously, I don't mind offensive gay jokes, (or any other kind of offensive jokes for that matter) but can't they at least be funny?

When I'm obsessed with something, I go whole-hog: writing, drawing, ranting (occasionally singing). Whatever it is, I don't just like it, I love it with all my heart and mind.  

...Until the next thing comes along.

Well, that infatuation was over as quickly as it began.  Feels as though I'm coming down off a high.  On the other hand, I've started writing again, and I would choose that over love any day, lol.

Last night was weird, freaking out for no reason.  I've been talking about past loves with someone lately, and it has a weird effect on me; like throwing salt in an open wound.  I'm suddenly so sad about people I thought I'd forgotten long ago.  I'm sick of this.  I'd like to have a love that actually happens, not one that bangs around inside my head until it suffocates.  Lol, listen to me, ranting about love.  Having a bit of an identity crisis; hopefully I'll be back to my unsentimental self soon enough.  Not used to feeling this vulnerable.  Need to go running, sweat it out of my system...

It's Halloween today, and I feel quite sad. Being cooped up in the house is always depressing, and can't go out and run because I'm too sick . Someone who I'm deeply infatuated with isn't interested in me, and I wish I'd never said anything in the first place. Spent so much time getting my education and yet feel no wiser, keep making the same mistakes where and when it matters.  Later, I'm going out trick 'o treating for candy I can't eat, but hopefully being around friends will be more cheerful. Dressing up as a wolf; will probably post pictures of the costume soon. Waiting for life to happen, hope it does soon. Don't want to play the roll of damsel in distress, and yet I'm out of ideas to make things better.